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I hate to think that all good things come to an end, but I have the feeling that they do.
That someday, things will end. That the truth will come out and you’ll leave me. That I’ll cause something bad to happen.
I don’t know. Part of me knows it’s not true that I’ll do something bad because of my OCD. I have these repetitive thoughts freaking me out that I’ll cheat on my boyfriend. It’s not true because I’m a very, very dedicated person and I couldn’t ask for someone better, nor does anyone I know hold a candle to him. I don’t want anyone else. But my OCD says ‘you’re going to end up cheating on him and you’ll be a horrible person and it’ll all be your fault.’ I know it’s the last thing in the world that I would ever do, but my OCD keeps telling me that it’s going to happen.
Let them go. And if they don’t come back, they were never yours to begin with.
Somehow I think this statement is both true and false.
Love is not always a forever thing. I think for some people it might be, but for all you out there who go around throwing “love” to every other guy or girl you meet, it is not a forever thing. Obviously. So I think this isn’t true because maybe they did love you at one point and now they just don’t. So they did belong to you but don’t anymore.
But this statement is true because sometimes they could have belonged to you with all their heart, but they could not come back to you because it was not meant to be.
Or, my favorite to believe, they are coming back to you it’s just taking them a little while. That, ladies and gentlemen, is called denial haha.
Sell my soul to make a profit, all I have to do is make believe.
Love that song.
And I realize that I don’t need him in my life for me to be a person. I can be anyone I want to be without defining myself in him.
I realize that I will always love him, I will always want it all back, but in the end I know what’s right and it’s not this.
Someday, I will understand.
And that is when I will stop waiting for you to come around again.
I’m doing a Bob Marley portrait for a friend and I like it kind of so far.
He has a lot of dreaklocks.
:P
Just this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9expIQ2VgW8&feature=related
That song is everything I’m afraid of, everything I want, everything that makes me stay up at night, sleepless and thoughtless.
Do you rememeber the nights we’d stay up laughing, smiling for hours at anything?
Standing on my basement stairs, staring at my iPhone. You asked me what I was doing that weekend, and I asked you out.
Standing on my basement stairs, waiting for your reply.
Remember the nights we drove around crazy in love…
New Text: Sure, what time?
I could have exploded, for all that’s worth.
It’s worth nothing.
When the lights go out, we’ll be safe and sound. We’ll take control of the world like it’s all we have to hold on to…
Dreaming and waiting for that day, waiting and hoping that you’d show. Checking the window every five minutes, hoping and longing that maybe you got lost, and that’s why you’re not showing up. Longing and needing to hear you say you didn’t forget.
And we’ll be a dream.
That’s all we were that night, a dream and a wish and a prayer that never came true.
11:11 pm and I don’t know if I want to wish you were here or wish I had never met you.
Do you remember the nights we made our way dreaming, hoping of being someone big, we were so young then, we were too crazy…
Except the ‘we’ you always talked of wasn’t really ‘we’, it was you and her, not you and me. And your ‘we’ always was meant to be. Mine was never a reality.
…in love.
You could always talk to me, always tell me what was wrong. I’m sad to say I can never do the same. Because I just can’t let myself be hurt like that.
When the lights go out, we’ll be safe and sound
You and I were never meant to be. But at night, when the lights go down, and the sun has set, we live in my dreams. We will be safer there than anywhere else we could have been.
We’ll take control of the world, like it’s all we have to hold on to
The only way we’ll ever be together is in my dreams. It’s all I have left to hold onto that reality has not tainted with it’s bitter taste of regret.
And we’ll be a dream.
But never a reality.
We will be what never existed in the first place.
Like it’s all we have to hold on to, we’ll be a dream.
Like it’s all we have to hold on to…
Why is it that I am always falling for the people who never fall for me?
It kind of sucks. A lot.
Really. Here’s the situation:
I know a girl. (amazing, right!?)
And when I met her she liked someone… we’ll call ralph. Because I don’t like this person and ralph doesn’t seem like the kind of name you give someone if you don’t like them.
And Ralph went to rehab for a month and we didn’t see him.
And my friend, we’ll call her… Amazing. Because that’s what she is :)
Amazing said she didn’t like being second choice for Ralph, because Ralph has someone else he likes. And Amazing and I made a pact that we’d grow plants to give them lots of love instead of wasting it on being a second choice.
So I started growing my plants. They’re doing very well :)
But Amazing didn’t follow through. She didn’t.
Which makes me sad for some reason, and I don’t know why.
It shouldn’t matter.
But then I realized I really like her. And I hate seeing her hurting.
But there’s nothing I can do about it, because she still likes Ralph after he’s come back from rehab. (on the bright side he’s two months clean)
I guess it is really true, distance does make the heart grow fonder.
Lol I’m such a lamer :P
It sucks. Why can’t for once, things go smoothly?
So what am I to do?
