In love.

With someone who will never love me back.

I guess this is something a lot of people can relate to, right? Because we all know someone who doesn’t love us like we love them. And how do I know this? Simple, it’s life.

And also because I made a list. I know things are serious when I make lists haha (or that I have insanely too much time during spring break)…

1. You give them all the respect in the world and they treat you like they treat everyone else.

And most of us have done that at some point or another. We feel the need to… no, we want to make this person feel something special. We want them to see how much we like them, so we go the extra mile to let them know it. But they are just sitting there going, “Gee, thanks! Dude, I LOVE cookies!! — Oh hey, there’s insertcommonsuperhotblondechicknamehere! Come on over superhotblondechick!!” And you sit there thinking what the fuck you did wrong….

2. You interrupt your sleep schedule for them.

I don’t know if other people do this as much as I do, but I’ll put it out there anyway. I used to stay up to talk to a guy: on the phone, during the night, even through my nap time. (And if you ask my roommate, I put aside my nap time for NOBODY… until he came…) Stupid thing to do, seeing as I love sleeping more than breathing and this kid was sitting in class being bored. If I really meant something to him, he wouldn’t ignore me completely during the times he isn’t out of class AKA not being bored. If I’m only good enough to keep you entertained when you’re bored, please just let me go. 

3. He will always look at you as “that weird kid”.

Yeah. I’m stuck in this box forever, I’m afraid. I’m like a mini-freak show, one who doesn’t mind being freaky. The only time it bothers me is when other people start treating me like I’m less of a human being because of my hair or my style or whatever. Just because I have pink, blue, green, blonde, purple, or striped hair, long or short, doesn’t mean I am not still a girl, a girl who wants to be loved just like everyone else. Fat or skinny, tall or short, we are all just people wanting to be loved and I am no exception. This kid thinks he can go around and treat me like his little sister. But time’s up; I’m making a stand. I won’t be pushed around like that anymore.

4. You think about them all the time. They forget to call, text, message/ ignore altogether.

This is probably the nail in the coffin. When you walk by someone shouting, “Hey, hey, HEY!!! HEY! IT’S ME!!” and they’re not even listening to music, they just don’t see you, you know that you are less than a blip on their radar (especially when this happens more than once). Or when they forget to call you when they said they would, they ditch you when they were going to go to class with you, the list goes on and on. Anything that shows they aren’t thinking about you. Meanwhile, you sit in your room each morning trying to remember if he said anything nice about the outfit you’re thinking of wearing, but decide for something else because it’s not his favorite color.

5. Half the things on your tumblr page pertain to him.

Yes, it is sad but true. And kind of really bad for me, I think. Who knows, maybe it’s good for me to vent?? I don’t know…

And if you put up with me ranting then I present a wonderful video I found that makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside. Watch it for a pick me up :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmq321zjkvs