What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?

Texted, had a phone of my own that I actually used on a (too) regular basis talking/texting people, had a boyfriend, abstained from self injury for more than 4 months, and ended up in another state hundreds of miles away not knowing how I got there or what I was doing, and I became an adult! 18 all the way baby! :D haha

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don’t bother with New Years’ resolutions, I don’t remember if I made any. I was too depressed at the time. Heck I don’t even remember Christmas from the year before, yet alone New Years’ right after that, so I don’t remember and 2010 resolutions. And I’m probably going to do some this year.

What countries did you visit?

None. I was hospitalized too much for that.

What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

Someone to love me for me, not for my body or out of pity or because I am so convenient for them because I fill all requirements of being a significant other to them. And a relationship that isn’t completely over text, internet, and phone.

What date/s from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

None. My memory doesn’t etch very well.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Graduating high school a year early.

What was your biggest failure?

Getting too involved with someone too far away from me. Hence the ex-boyfriend.

What was the best thing you bought?

Doctors. Hopspitals. Medical specialists. haha well their services.

Where did most of your money go?

Doctors. Hospitals. Medical Specialists.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Leaving school a year early and going to college- which turned into a fresh start I didn’t even know I wanted but needed badly because I had fucked up so much in my past.

What song will always remind you of 2010?

Anything by Lady Gaga, The Reason by Hoobastank, and Dynamite by Taio Cruz.

What was your job this year?

Being a patient in hospitals or for various specialists.

Did you have any encounters with the police in 2010?

Some asshole keyed my car and left a death threat so I had to file a report to the police…? If that counts as an ‘encounter’.

What was your favorite TV program?

Degrassi. Me and my ex were obsessed with that and would watch it cuz even though we were in different time zones it was on at the same time in both so for once we could do something together.

What was the best book you read?

I don’t remember, but I did a lot of reading seeing as I spent so much time in hospitals and doctor’s offices the first half of the year… maybe the mercy thompson series? Or Love in the Present Tense.

What was your greatest musical discovery?

The Fray. I’m saying that because I always knew them, like I knew their big songs, but only this year did I actually listen to more of their work and fall completely in love with it. They are such a gem.

What did you want and get?

Out of high school a year early.

What did you want and not get?

Release. Freedom. Love… the guy I like now…

Did you make any new friends this year?

Either the best ones ever or the worst… I’ll get back to you on that.

What did you do on your birthday?

mmm…I was called a slutty bitch by my dad… and I woke up to screaming in the house and my mom had a breakdown as usual getting ready for the party. Good times, I know.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?

Boyish. You have no idea.

What kept you sane?

Music. Music and lots of it. And getting out of high school a year early.

Who was the best new person you met?

The guy I like. Because I met him at a time when I had no one, and knew no one would want me, and I wasn’t even trying to impress people. I wasn’t trying to make friends. But he became my first at NIU. 

What from pop culture will you remember 2010 by?

My wall. That doesn’t make sense to anyone who hasn’t seen it, but to me, pop culture is music. And I painted my wall with all the lyrics from my favorite songs of 2010, so they will always be remembered.

How do you plan to start 2011?

I planned on it being awesome and talking to my friend that I like… but instead alone, my fish died, and my blood pressure dropped to dangerously low levels. All in the same day. So kind of crappy.

Where did you begin 2010?

As an anorexic, self-injuring borderline personality disordered kid who didn’t want anything more than to get the fuck out of high school before it killed me.

How did you spend your summer?

I was in therapy and doctors offices for most of it… the other half spent talking to my now - ex - boyfriend. And reading manga online. 

What was your worst month?

January.

Favorite night out?

Going to a party with a friend from college who I might like… and watching my roommate’s ex-boyfriend get drunk and run around in a pink snuggie and almost pass out on the lawn of the dorms… after which we drove to my other friend’s appartment a block away where we stayed until 3 or 4 ish. When we went out to get the car it had been towed and we walked like three miles at 4 in the morning to get it back. We didn’t get back to the dorm until 7 in the morning and he slept in my room because my roommate was out of town and he used her bed. We woke up at 12 or 1 ish and right as we walk out my family came in to visit me. It was so close to being really really awkward finding us asleep in the same room.

What sporting events did you attend?

Basketball! My first sporting event ever! (excluding the almost 2 football games I went to in high school)

What was your best month?

September

Overall, how would you rate this year?

It wasn’t anything extraordinary… actually come  to think of it it kind of was just not in a happy stress-free way. More things happened to me that changed my life forever in this year than any other so far.

Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?

Doctors’ offices… kind of sad.

Do anything embarrassing?

Mmhmm tons.

Something new to try in 2011:

Let things go, let people live, let life flow as it should. Stop fucking with the balance of things.