You can take up all my time cause you’re the only one who can make the stormclouds break…

<love like woe…the ready set>

I love the idea of being in a relationship. Like really, I do. Truly. But then I think about it and it’s like… well that’s a helluva lot of work. I’d rather have a relationship that’s like someone being my best friend and I can totally be myself around them. I don’t want another one of those Hollywood type ‘relationships’ that is all about sex and money and who’s got the hottest guy. I don’t want a relationship where it’s all awkward silences and the guy being all ‘oh I have to buy you flowers because it’s your birthday’ and all that crap ‘no I love shopping with you!’ First of all, I hate shopping and try to get it done with as soon as possible, in and out. So if you tell me some bullshit about not caring about how long I take or how much you don’t mind it, cut the crap because I have patience for pretty much everything except shopping. So either you’re a materialistic bastard or you’re lying. Can’t think of many other explainations for that.

But anyway, the flowers. The gifts, the whatevers. I don’t want that stuff. I’m not a materialistic person. I enjoy people more than I enjoy the things they get me. So before you call me crazy, listen. I like it when a guy buys me something, like a sweatshirt or jewelry or something useful. The best gift I got from a guy was needlenose pliers because I had broken mine and had been needing new ones for a while. That he got that for me was the best present because it meant he had listened, and he knew what I needed. It also meant that he put some thought into it rather than something meaningless. Not to say flowers are meaningless, but they’re just kind of a burden to me. I don’t want you to give me cut plants and let me watch them die, and plus they’re completely useless to me other than looking nice. So why not get something that I think is ten times more romantic because it’s not that cliche flowers and chocolates kind of thing.

But also, just the word relationship scares me away. It sounds so old, so committed, like, oh, I’m in a relationship, I’m a cultured, well-rounded individual with high-society class. But with saying oh we’re just dating is… just that. You’re just dating, it’s not serious, it’s not permenant, and it’s immature. I wish there was some inbetween word because relationship just scares me away and dating sounds like I’m a kid. I’d rather not be either, personally. I want to be with someone who loves me and whom I love back. If that’s too skewed a version of love than this world has one more lonely girl.