Looking back on my old blog, I was reading about how I felt last year when Hue first asked me out and I was so against it. I had so much emotion against him. I was confused. I didn’t know what I wanted but even then I knew instinctively that he treated me right. I wrote that he treated me better than I deserved. I knew even then that he treated me better than I had ever been treated, or was being treated at the time by other guys.

I wonder sometimes if I will wake up one day and not love him anymore and it scares me more than anything. I don’t want to imagine what it would be like without him in my life. I worry.